Tuesday, August 19, 2014

60q :)

We all know I'm addicted to quizzes and memes :) Saw this one on Dana's, had to borrow it :) 

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? 
Yep :) 
2. Opinions on sex before marriage? 

I don't think it's realistic to wait. 
3. Is trust a big issue for you?
I think maybe. I try not to think that everyone has a hidden agenda, but unfortunately sometimes they do :( 
5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?
lol, I have. 
6. What happened last night? 
went to the gym :) 7. Ever have plastic surgery? 
I haven't. I don't know if I'd want to go under the knife voluntarily or not.. 8. Which are better - black or green olives? 
Ew. Neither! 9. What is the last beverage you had? 
Iced Coffee :) It's sitting right beside me right now. 10. Ever won a contest?
 Yes :) A few. 
11. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? 

I do! I wouldn't have been very comfortable in them last year at this time, but they work now :) 
12. What are you gonna do Saturday night? 
Haven't planned it yet. I like to go out, but I love staying in too.13. What are you going to spend money on next? 
I have to go to the store :( Yuck! 14. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?
I hope so. I have big goals :) 15. Can you swim well? 
Not like an olympian, but I won't drown, lol
16. Have you had sex today? 
Not yet.. If I wouldn't have slept through my alarms though, I might have tried :) 
17. Regularly burn incense? 

Never have..
18. Are you in a good mood? 

Not particularly, but I am having some very rare alone time :) 19. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?
I want to say yes, but when it comes down to it, I don't think I could scuba dive!! I have claustrophobic issues, lol. 20. What do you want right this second? 
World peace. For real. I know that's the beauty queen answer (which goes back to the contest thing, lol!) but everything in the news is so disturbing. 

21. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? 
I've been this color for so long I don't know what my actual color is, hahaha :) 
22. Hot tea or cold tea? 
I drink tea almost everyday, but I love hot tea in the winter! :)
23. Tea or coffee?
24. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? 
Yes. I actually miss my hubby.  Mondays are hard, we barely see each other and I was already mostly asleep when he got home last night. Hopefully we get some time together tonight. :)
25. Does everyone deserve a second chance? 
No. Some things are unforgivable. 
26. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? 
 I should hope so.  
27. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?  
Yes. I very rarely drink it.  
28. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? 
I kissed the girls goodbye before school. 
29. Who did you last call? 
I actually had to look.. it's my grandmother :) I called her yesterday morning. 
30. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?  
To tell them goodbye.
31. Who would you like to see in concert? 

That's a good question! I've been to lots of concerts, we love music. Someone I haven't seen..... Justin Timberlake. Haven't seen him.  (That took a lot of thinking!)
32. What was the last concert you saw? 
I can't put the actual last one I saw for fear of exposure, lol, but the one before that.... oh, I can't write that one either.  Let's just say an alternative band :)  
33. Do you tan in the nude? 
34. Are you patient? 
Sometimes. Depends on the situation. 
35. Who was the last person to call you? 
My daughter's old school. 
36. Do you sing in the shower? 
Only if there is music playing.  
37. Ever used a bow and arrow? 
38. Do you think musicals are cheesy? 
They can be. 
39. Is Christmas stressful? 
Not at all. I love every bit of it. I love the shopping, I love the gifts, the parties, the celebration. I love teaching my kids what it's really about.  I love Christmas!  
40. Ever eat a pierogi? 
I don't think so... 

41. Favorite type of fruit pie? 

42. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? 
 Veterinarian, teacher, model, superstar, lol :) 
43. Do you believe in ghosts? 

44. Ever been in love? 
45. Take a vitamin daily? 
I'm supposed to.. but I am not good at taking pills everyday! 
46. Wear slippers? 
Not usually. 
47. Wear a bath robe? 
Sometimes when I'm getting ready. 
48. What do you wear to bed? D
Sometimes nothing, sometimes a tank and panties, sometimes FM's t-shirt.. just depends.  
49. First concert? 
A country guy with a mullet, lol. Or technically sesame street. 
50. Walmart, Target or Kmart? 
I love Target, even though I generally spend too much. Walmart is closer, but I prefer a local supermarket. 
51. Nike or Adidas? 

52. Cheetos or Fritos? 
Neither. I hate cheetos and I'm not really a frito person either... 
53. Peanuts or sunflower seeds?
I like both :)
54. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? 
55. What is your favorite book? 
Probably anything by Nicholas Sparks. Or Heaven is For Real- it's very powerful :)  
56. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? 
Fireman, or my best friend. I could probably even tell her about ttwd, but I don't want to get into it. lol.  
57. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? 
Probably last Christmas for a party photo. 
58. Ever have a deja-vu feeling?
Yes, actually just last weekend. 
59. Listening to? 
Myself type.. the dvd just finished a show, so it paused itself. 
60. Favorite cookie? 
I love all cookies..  

Thursday, August 14, 2014

An agreement :)

First, thank you all for your kind words and advice. I really appreciated it.. most of it, lol :) No, just kidding.  I really did appreciate all of it.  Even the one that I didn't appreciate got some dialogue rolling between FM and I.. and even though it wasn't accurate, I did appreciate it.  

We are on the way up.  We talked.  I think it took at least a week.  We tried getting back to normal after the initial talk we had.  But it was the usual us. Nothing resolved, nothing really hashed out.  Just hurt feelings and some conversation that touched the surface of things that had been going on.  It was classic us. 

Until the following Monday.  I was stressed and anxious with him being away from me.  Mondays are always hard for us because we've had the weekend together, then we are apart for the entire day.  From morning shower to bedtime, apart.  

I didn't really ask him to quit the habit in our earlier conversations.  So when Monday rolled around and I knew what he was doing at work, it just brought everything back to the surface for me, along with everything that had been said.  It was just too much and another very large fight erupted.  

I wanted to text him.  I wanted to just have the old FM back, but we couldn't go back.  There was no back because what I'd thought was clouded now, you know? It was a mess.  

Then somehow we started discussing things.  Everything.  Things from the beginning, things from the middle, things from the present.  We talked A LOT.  Mostly over text, but it just kept going.  We text-talk well, lol.  

Then we got a date night last weekend and got reconnected.  We made a few deals and it wasn't my plan to get the discussion of bringing ttwd back, but it happened.  I texted without really thinking that I wished we could bring ttwd back in our lives.  He replied he was already there.  

But, I said there was no way I could do it with him still doing the thing I had a huge problem with, that he had been hiding from me for so long.  It would never work.  He just replied that he understood. 

Then on our date, actually I think it was before, we came to an agreement.  We had a fun spanking session before we left.. it was a deal we had made lol.  During the day he commented about something, but when I wanted a more in-depth description, he didn't really want to talk about it.  So I said I'd be up for a session before we went to dinner if he told me.  It worked ;) And it was really hot to have it before we left.  It got the date started off the best way possible.  I missed that connection so much that I made him another deal.  We will get back to ttwd if he quits.  Really quits for good.  Deal, he said.  Hopefully that's incentive enough for him to kick the habit.  

We are doing well now, really well.  It's a little touchy from time to time, just because wounds are still a little fresh, but we are okay.  :)