So, 9 months in to this new, amazing, better-than-ever marriage we have, I've realized it's unfortunately easy to fall off the path. Although a life of ttwd is impressive in more ways than one, sometimes your mind gets the best of you. You start thinking dismal thoughts and think its better to revert back to the old way of life. When, really, if you/I just chilled out for a second, you/I would see that it's only a tiny bump in the road and that everything is going to be just fine.
Of course that's all much easier said than done.
We talked Wednesday evening and got everything figured out. I took my last post out of draft mode with his permission and after he said he couldn't disagree with pretty much everything that was in it.
We talked about expectations and how he may expect me to get into spanking position when he sets up the little stool we use (our bed is tall!) but he's never verbalized that to me, so I have no idea. What he sees as defiant, is me just not realizing what he wants. Me wanting him to say or do certain things without him knowing is the same. We are working on it.
We had a really good maintenance session after that and we are back where we want to be. He made sure I knew that he does want this lifestyle. He said that I found it for us, but he's stuck on it. If you ever didn't want it, that would be a real problem. And I really hope that never happens. Aw. :) that made me feel a million times better.
Then the tears came when he said I was his the minute we met. He went into detail, which I can't go into here... Real life and all, but it was certainly one of the sweetest things he's ever said.
We have decided to follow Kenzie & Colin's plan of Submissive Saturdays to help us with our roles. You can find Kenzie's blog here!! We are going to chat this evening and hopefully he will come up for something we can work on tomorrow. Any suggestions are welcome!! I'm excited. I think because it feels like we are being proactive and working towards the goal together.
Hopefully I'll have a Submissive Saturday blogpost to share about this weekend!! Have a great weekend!