With Christmas, then my birthday, and then usually by V-day, I don't need anything. Plus, I really don't need one day to show or receive love. Even before dd, I knew he loved me. Now, living dd, I truly know and feel the love (hahaha no pun intended, even though I do feel it, too!!). I do love flowers, but I don't want them just because a holiday says you should send them. I'd rather get them in the days before or the days after a candy coated holiday because he wants to send them (or bring them personally).
We had really already taken care of gifts, I thought. Fireman was looking at some fire-themed apparel from an online store that is really cool. He was showing me stuff, but he wouldn't order. He doesn't like to spend money, especially on himself. I had seen a new shirt they had just released that I liked, too, so I suggested a trade. He'd let me buy him the things he'd shown me, he could buy me the new shirt and we'd call it Vday gifts and be even. Win-win! Lol.
This morning, I got up a little later than I had intended. I stayed up watching a game that didn't end the way I wanted, lol. But he let me watch it and didn't complain about it being late. We really reconnected last night too.
We had a really good conversation yesterday. I actually started a post about it, but didn't get to finishing it. Maybe another time...
We talked about how he hasn't been much on enforcing any rules (not that I break many) and how we haven't gotten back into our rhythm. I am having a hard time getting things done and we haven't been talking like we need to.
He informed me we would be getting back to it last night. He was serious. He was done with me back talking and tired of being off track. I was nervous, I really didn't know what to expect. Up to this point, spankings weren't really that bad. I knew at some point intensity would increase, but for now I knew I could handle it.
He had a plan. Shower first. Okay, what's next? You don't need to worry about what's next. I have a plan. I drive him crazy asking to fill me in. Not very interesting shower together.. I think I was unintentionally being
a little defiant. It's just that submissive Elle seemed to have packed her bags for a long vacation.
We watched the first part of my game together.. But then at halftime, directions to go in our room. No panties. Damn, I wasn't going to ask but clearly he means business. We figured out a new position that might work better for us. It's sort of half over his knee, half kneeling on a little stool, half on the bed. Lol. I know sounds weird,but it worked.
No talking from you, except for when you're supposed to. Supposed to? Oh.. Counting. So off he went. Rubbing, switching up implements, rubbing. He went longer than usual. He rubbed for a few minutes afterward. I was mostly in the right headspace. I probably could've used more, but then more um... Reconnecting after helped me completely get there :) submissive Elle is on her way back.
So, back to this morning.. #1 brought me an envelope she found when she was getting ready for school. She said this has your name on it.. Where's mine? Lol.. So now daddy has to get his girls a card too! They're definitely old enough to need and want one from him. So sweet.
The card is absolutely without a doubt the sweetest card he's ever given me. He usually makes his own, which I love. We all know how hard it is to find a non-cheesy card, lol.
Inside he wrote (which I hope he doesn't mind me sharing...) ... I'm not underlining this entire piece like I usually do to represent his words. He underlined some in it and I want that to show :)
I really hate trying to buy store bought cards, but this hits the mark pretty well. I can't believe we ever got to this place. Looking back, I knew I loved you when I first saw you, but so much of our time had been like living parts of The Notebook it's what we did, love-fight, love-fight, love-fight. But THIS... This is something special. This is what I wish for, for so many unhappily married people I know. I wish others would feel and know the love, the joy, the blessing that you are to me. I'm the lucky one. I'm blessed. But only because you have my heart. I love you is much. You make my dreams come true. Happy Valentine's Day.
Best. Husband. Ever.
Happy Valentine's Day everyone!