This will probably end up in a million directions. I have no clear vision like I usually do, of what I want to write. I think I'm finally caught up on reading everyone's blogs. I hate missing a few days and trying to catch up. I get everyone confused, lol.
Life is back, getting in the way again, lol. #2 is now sick. She has had super high fevers and I took her to the doctor. He put her on an antibiotic and I'm hoping it starts working really soon. She's so pitiful, I hate it :(
We are still living dd, but we had a setback this weekend. We were going to go out on Saturday and do something fun as a family, but that's when #2 began to feel bad. We decided to get some lunch from somewhere and eat in. I found a coupon and told him all about it. Fireman left to get it and about 30 minutes later, came back and couldn't tell me what he got. Immediate aggravation. I knew he did not listen to what I said. That goes right through me.
All day I spend with kids and babies. Do they listen to me? No. I repeat myself all day long. It seriously makes me feel awful when he doesn't listen to me. I know it was completely trivial, but it spiraled out of control.
In my head, I quit dd.
I didn't say it though. I think that's another point of proof that ttwd changes you (in a good way). Before, I would spout off whatever thought came into my head. Venom. It just made everything worse. And while I'm sure even Fireman will tell you, I still have a tendency to get mouthy during an argument. That part of me is not fixed. But I don't say every mean thing I can think of.
We definitely needed to both handle the situation better, but he apologized for not listening and then getting loud with me. We are a work in progress. It just takes effort. Which reminds me. If you haven't yet, read Ward & June's post about effort. It is so good. :)
I think this post is probably unfinished and doesn't make a lot of sense. Having little sleep in the past two days is really messing with my brain... Maybe I'll be able to get a nap in today. Probably not, but it sounds good! Lol :)