This will probably end up in a million directions. I have no clear vision like I usually do, of what I want to write. I think I'm finally caught up on reading everyone's blogs. I hate missing a few days and trying to catch up. I get everyone confused, lol.
Life is back, getting in the way again, lol. #2 is now sick. She has had super high fevers and I took her to the doctor. He put her on an antibiotic and I'm hoping it starts working really soon. She's so pitiful, I hate it :(
We are still living dd, but we had a setback this weekend. We were going to go out on Saturday and do something fun as a family, but that's when #2 began to feel bad. We decided to get some lunch from somewhere and eat in. I found a coupon and told him all about it. Fireman left to get it and about 30 minutes later, came back and couldn't tell me what he got. Immediate aggravation. I knew he did not listen to what I said. That goes right through me.
All day I spend with kids and babies. Do they listen to me? No. I repeat myself all day long. It seriously makes me feel awful when he doesn't listen to me. I know it was completely trivial, but it spiraled out of control.
In my head, I quit dd.
I didn't say it though. I think that's another point of proof that ttwd changes you (in a good way). Before, I would spout off whatever thought came into my head. Venom. It just made everything worse. And while I'm sure even Fireman will tell you, I still have a tendency to get mouthy during an argument. That part of me is not fixed. But I don't say every mean thing I can think of.
We definitely needed to both handle the situation better, but he apologized for not listening and then getting loud with me. We are a work in progress. It just takes effort. Which reminds me. If you haven't yet, read Ward & June's post about effort. It is so good. :)
I think this post is probably unfinished and doesn't make a lot of sense. Having little sleep in the past two days is really messing with my brain... Maybe I'll be able to get a nap in today. Probably not, but it sounds good! Lol :)
Xo,
Elle
Ah Elle, hope you manage to catch up on sleep. I remember those days well. And another little word in your ear - didn't you know that men rarely listen! It's just one of those little facts in life. And we love them for it regardless! Don't worry about it - just go with the flow!
ReplyDeleteHugs, Ami
Thanks Ami! I need to chill and do just that!
DeleteHang in there and I hope you get a nap today! I can totally relate to the kids and not listening and sending your mood into a downward spiral!
ReplyDeleteThanks! No nap, but I did get some cuddle time with my fireman on the couch :)
DeleteClearly you are in need of some hugs, Elle. So, here's a great big one for you ((((((((((HUG)))))))))) It does sound like you're making progress and that's a good thing. I hope your little one feels better soon. Those high fevers are scary!
ReplyDeleteAww, thank you so much Grace!!!
DeleteThey are very scary. I think she's finally starting to feel a little better.
Hang in there Elle, I hope you manage to get some rest. Sorry to hear about your little one and hope she is feeling better soon.
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Roz
Thanks Roz!
DeleteI feel like I want to just hug you. {{{HUGS}}} My Hubby does the same a lot of the time, but because of how much it hurts me, he is definitely trying more. It hurts so much when the one person who is supposed to care about the words that come out of my mouth, often can't even remember them, or even the jist of them. I know how inconsequential it can make you feel. I'm glad he apologized. I hope your little one feels better soon. It's always so heartbreaking when kids are sick, especially when they are really sick.
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