Yesterday, we were texting.
*What's your deal?* (On why he's been crummy lately...)
*Idk. I think it's bc there hasn't been any (insert symbol he uses for spanking) or any (symbol he uses for sex) in like a week and we are out of balance, bc you were gone the day before and last night was just crummy. There hasn't been any closeness between us in several days and I think that has to do with it.*
...... A few minutes later.
*What are we going to do to fix it?*
*Idk. Make time and do (symbol for spanking) this evening. ?*
*I'm not sure how to respond.* (that weird question mark. What? Is he asking me if I should be spanked? I'm a little confused..)
*lol, what do you mean?
I don't feel connected to you right now. Like at all.
I'm of the opinion that (symbol for spanking) has brought more connectedness in our relationship than anything. Possibly ever.
Do you agree or disagree?*
*idk. There's the question mark that's all weird at the end.
I don't feel connected either.
I do agree.*
*Then I'll respond for you and remove the weirdness.
You-"yes, I think we need (symbol for spanking) at all cost. I think that will fix it and get us back in a good place."
Me- "yes. I agree"*
*Thats an interesting conversation you have going.*
*Lol. You like that? I do what I gotta do ya know...*
But it didn't happen. I was supposed to have a doctor appointment today, so you know, not supposed to have sex right before an appointment and I was worried about any possible bruises because we haven't had maintenance or punishment in so long.
Except I have a very unreliable babysitter anyway and her car isn't great in snow. I had already gotten the idea that she didn't want to come over anyway, but she won't come right out and say it. It's an annoying thing my mother does. Oh, did I not mention she's my sitter? She really only likes to visit my kids when it's convenient. She doesn't want to do it often and she's always "not feeling well." Whatever. I don't want to deal with it.
So now, I'm slightly aggravated that we didn't get to fix this last night.
I'm glad today was a snow day, but I wish my husband had gotten one too, lol. I'm definitely SO glad tomorrow is Saturday. We have a few things to do around the house, but we will mostly be able to just be here together.
I know he'll take care of this as soon as possible too. I'm in an even crummier mood than yesterday.
I don't want to be. I want that close feeling back. Immediately.