This is not what I want to write, at all. I want to tell you all about my wonderful birthday weekend, great birthday-eve date that fireman and I got to spend together. There's a lot to write about.. instead I have a big, BIG request.
If you're the kind of person that prays, please say a little prayer for me. If not, I do understand. Just send me some good thoughts, if you don't mind.
Two or three days ago, my underarm started hurting just slightly. It was a weird feeling, I thought maybe I'd just pulled a muscle. Now, it's really, really hurting. I checked out WebMD and nothing it says is good.
Fireman wants to take me to get checked out tonight, he knows I'll do nothing but worry until we find something out. I'm really, really worried.
It's been a day of epic panic attacks. The baby has to have surgery soon, to get his tonsils removed (they're awful!!) and we just saw a specialist today that wants to remove them. I don't have a set day for it yet, but I was already stressing about it.
Now this. It hurts to sit in this position to type out this message, but it would make me feel better to have you guys in the loop and have your thoughts and prayers.
I'm scared that I won't come back home. I'm scared for my girls and the baby. I am just really scared.
This is not me. I'm usually much stronger than this, but sitting here alone googling, the kids are all in bed.. and I'm just worried. Fireman is at the station for training, but he should be home anytime and we're going to go to the emergency room.
I will keep you posted. And all of your posts are really helping me not think about things that I shouldn't.